contrary to actual belief
what makes us believe? when belief itself feels like betrayal? not evidence-- but a quiet certainty enveloped beneath doubt a reflex of our conscious reaching for a steady stance even when the ground is missing. hope never does arrive loudly all its adjectives are quiet lingering latent uninvited it disguises itself as patience as working without reason its like the gentle cruelty of maybe calling it faith is wrong, afterall its just anticipation wearing borrowed confidence a future i imagine just enough to get through my present therefore contrary to actual belief, we keep believing, not because its true, but because without it, we disappear. not because its true, but because truth alone cannot hold us. not because its true but because surviving demands a little fiction. not because its true, but because letting go costs more than believing. ...